After A Long Time….

Back on the writing saddle, galloping on the prancing words making their way through my narrow brain! Boy, It feels good to be back! It has been quite some time since my last blog post and a lot has happened since then, leaving its impression over me in a way…may be good or bad! But it sure has altered(not changed 🙂 ) me a bit. But then one should have Faith in ourselves and people around us. They are always there to help. Always prepare for the worst and hope for the best. Enough psenti talks!

This entire month it was either mid semester examination(yes, not immune to those 😀 ) or the post-exam havoc or its after effects, but now that things have calmed a bit, its time to move on. In past 1 week, I have found a very intriguing question: “How long one should repent over his mistakes? Is there any fixed time frame? An optimum no. of days for which one should repent? Does it depend upon individual itself or his/her surroundings govern it? Is there a compulsion at all? Should one forgive oneself and move on…..or live with the mistake as much as he can so as not to repeat it? How should one overcome the feeling of depression and hopelessness and recover from the scars?” All thought provoking yet very defining in nature. Defining one’s character, thought process, his reaction to situations, his strengths and weaknesses.

While contemplating over it, I found that answer to it is not universal but individual. It works differently for different people and I would love to hear your thoughts but that is up to you if you like to share. 🙂 After much processing, introspecting, reading through online posts about how great people took their failure, here is my answers to these questions(PS: my opinions can strictly differ from your opinion and I respect your point of view too 🙂 and hope you have the same for mine) :

“How long one should repent over his mistakes?” I found that there are different stages to process a mistake, how so ever trivial or colossal it is. First there is denial, that it should not have happened! You feel disgraced and vulnerable that how it happened even though you had no intention of committing it, and the mistake was so unique and trivial that you had not even considered a mending plan initially. Then there is acceptance, that mistake happened, nothing can be done to revert it, it is already out in the open, people know about it and you could not have foreseen it. Following which is amendment plans, thinking about ways or methods or resources you can deploy to make amendments, reduce the damage done, cure people who are hurt by it. Following which is storage, the phase where we understand the need to bottle this experience, keep in the memory shelf of important collectibles and move on cautiously trying not to repeat it again. So how much time it all takes, differs from individual to individual that how much time they spend on each phase. Some get stuck on a phase and some enter into a loop going over it again and again!

“Does it depend upon individual itself or his/her surrounding govern it?” Well, like most of the psychic analysis of human behavior, there is no real conclusion to it. But one thing i found very compelling is: “It largely depends upon the dominating factor“. If the individual’s own personality and character has more dominating effect on him than his surrounding, then it is natural that time taken to recover will be largely influenced by it or the other way around. A simple example to explain the effect: Let us say a person has hit an other person very frankly. (Now, you must be thinking how this can be an example of processing a grave mistake. Please bear with me 🙂 ). Now the surrounding(people and relatives) is of such a behavior that every day it reminds the person of what he has done to other person and have magnified the effect of his actions thus not letting him move on with his life and for a very trivial action he has done, surrounding is prolonging the “moving on phase”, keeping him stuck in an infinite loop. How it will effect is a whole different story! Now if the person is of strong character and has high EQ(Emotional Quotient) then he could have easily avoided being drowned into the whirlpool.

“Is there a compulsion at all?”  I strongly believe that a person should ponder over his deeds both good and bad, and try to analyse and absorb the good things and discard the bad ones. Different people have different life philosophy. Some may believe in “keep moving forward”, irrespective of trail one is leaving, other like to leave a legacy for young generation. Different things work for different people. The important question:“Should one forgive oneself and move on…..or live with the mistake as much as he can so as not to repeat it?” Again there are personal preferences here and both are known to work for different people, again largely depending upon personal factors like character and personality. I believe in the prior method of “forgive and move on“! There is no point in sticking and contemplating over the same thing again and again, and rather one should forgive oneself, ensure that mistake don’t happen again, thus move on to new adventures, there are plenty! There is no point in punishing yourself over and over again! Everyone deserves a second chance.

“How should one overcome the feeling of depression and hopelessness and recover from the scars?” Again individual opinions may differ but i believe in forgiving ourselves for the mistakes we had done, move  forward on the path taken and make sure that you don’t take the same wrong turn again! And even if you do (by the Nature’s Force), you have a contingency plan for it! (This completes 1000 words!) And frankly speaking, that is all there is. Accept the consequences, make amendments, apologize, develop a back up plan and move on! 🙂

Rest is all up to you. I hope you get benefit from my experiences and wish you a very bright future ahead!

Auf Wiedersehen! (See You Again in German Language)

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APOGEE-2016

Disclaimer: NOT AN APOGEE REVIEW!

Every year soil of BITS-Pilani, Pilani Campus is graced by the presence of foreign students(nope not from other country but other colleges, and since Pilani is an ideal Hamlet, thus every outsider is equivalent to foreign student).

The fests in BITS are organised and celebrate with great enthusiasm and BITSIANs eagerly wait for each fest equally but reasons may differ! BOSM is welcomed for all the nail biting matches which students spectate almost on the cost of their lectures and teachers are grateful enough to agree to no to conduct any tests during BOSM week. OASIS need no explanation as class works are suspended for the entire fest duration and a day more(to bring students back to reality) and students are let loose in campus to experience something they haven’t before! Each OASIS has a different and unique memory attached to it! Then comes the APOGEE in mid march or in late February this time.

APOGEE is usually breather for students who get a stretch of holidays which most utilise to visit home and enjoy good food and warm bed (Pilani winters!) and only some utilise to participate in the events organised by different Assocs, exhibition by different clubs and Talks by departments! There are students who may utilise it for studying too as they tend to face less resistance from the existing cult of “cool people” who might taunt them with the taboo word rhyming with “got”. :3 Pun apart, APOGEE this year was a lot different than its previous versions!

Day 0: Inaug Ceremony and Mithali(followed by inaugration)  was good, there were performances by Mime club, Dance Club, Gurukul, Music Club etc. Right after Mithali, there was a late night movie screening of the movie “The Book Thief”. Fortunately, I had the person who has remembered this movie by heart, Saakshi! She told me about names of camera angles(which I obviously have forgotten 😛 ) Some memorized and important dialogue and all. We didn’t complete the movie and went back to sleep and wake up early for the events. Quiet a Quite day!

Day 1: 9:30am, I get call from Saakshi, GAMBLING MATHEMATICS. Half asleep I thought what is the harm in it. Running, skipping and leaping stairs, we reached to the venue, IPC where first round of it was going to be played. Rules were simple: Solve a question. Correct solution will give you points from -20 to +50 and wrong solution will give you -50 to +20! A gamble indeed and on our screen we had a pool of 50 questions out of which we have to select any 10 and answer those. Teams with highest points will proceed! With our luck and calculator, we amassed 151 points, before calling it quits on grounds of loosing further points! One of the top scoring teams, we proceeded to round 2. It was a rapid fire round with 5 rounds of question whose answers to be written on a card given. First round was horrible and was impossible! Rules were changed and further rounds were easy with a little teamwork. 2, 5, 4, 5, 4 were the scores out of 5.

There was a twist, at the end all the 25 teams were divided in groups of 6 and they had to play BLUFF with our numbered cards! (number on cards=marks of each card). Out of us too, I decided to play the game as I had a little more experience, and thus with a novice mistake from one of the participants, we passed that round to final round! Final round was auction round and we got out in the bidding round itself! We need to learn bidding! :3 It was super fun though! After that we proceeded to National Disaster Relief Force’s live demonstration of rescue from a high rise building, Clock tower and then back to our rooms. Later in night, attended one talk by Richard Stallman, founder of GNU project.

Day 2: I was sent Jaipur to escort Regional Director of Rajasthan, NSS, and after a 12 hour straight journey I was back in Pilani, spending time and learning from the Director himself in cab paid by institute! Later in night, we attended BITSopoly, a flavour of monopoly, but alas, couldn’t proceed beyond elims. Visited a couple of exhibitions by Photog and CrAC and had our jaws dropped witnessing the sheer talent of other BITSians, though I had never doubted them. 😀 Slept that night peacefully.

Day 3: Woke up a little late due to long journey (jetlag effect :3). Attended the Panel Discussion of YouthCon by our department, where Leaders from different NGOs, came and discussed about the challenges faced by them in the social sector and initiatives and methods they adopted to overcome them. Followed by that, attended one more exhibition by National Disaster Relief Force, where they show cased their equipment and detailed about the accuracy and functionality of each. Hats off to the Guys! Later in the evening, attended a talk by Mr. Jairam Ramesh, Member of Parliament from Indian National Congress and a well known economist too, who gave a brief overview of 1991 crisis faced by India. Also attended a talk by Radhika Vaz, feminist and stand up comedian, who tickled us with her bold and gripping speech and humour of course. Following which, we went to a “Goof Up” quiz, with Saakshi and Vishwesh. There, we were shown a movie clip, and we have to answer a question based on movie clip. It was fun surfing through net to get the correct answer! Thus ended the APOGEE and so ends my post! 😀

Auf Wiedersehen! (See you again in German)

 

Synthetic Beauty

Speed Writing! Half hour mark will be crossed in 6 mins and after that, I will try to write the entire blog in half hour, as personal test! Let us see how well I fare in this self test. Best of Luck To Me. I will be utilising these 6 minutes to think of content, get accustomed with the keyboard and monitor settings. Obviously, it will be a short blog as a regular blog takes up almost an hour or two of mine. The computer lab closes 5 minutes before 7pm, so to be honest I would have 25 mins+5mins to wrap up what I have invested my time in. 😀 Interesting. Thanks to WordPress’s auto save option, I wouldn’t have to worry about it, while I will be leaving! A minute to go. Fingers stretched, let us begin!

People often invest so much of their time and energy in cosmetics-both men and women. Even with such an investment and application of all the synthetic stuff out there in the market, they always try to move towards “natural” appearance! Ironic enough! I always wonder what “natural” appearance are they moving towards. Their own appearance is natural too. Applying so much cosmetic products won’t the change the elementary you. Then why to wear a mask for the world and either for those who care about you the least(like excessive parlour and skin treatments for some random party just to prove status symbol or to look “good”) or for those who care about you the most. One might argue about the sanctity of my statement about “those who cares about us the most”, that why is it so wrong! My point- if people care about you, they won’t care about some material appearance which is totally temporary!

Yes, I agree one must desire to look good for other people, because it presents you as like-able, attractive and approachable to others but over doing it is what frustrates me! People will spend hours thinking about what dress they will wear or to rephrase this question in more realistic and understandable way: what dress will look good to others which they will eventually wear? And then going through such dilemma and confusion as if it is the only thing that has remained in the world. I believe that one must find a balance between what they like to wear and is COMFORTABLE and what world MIGHT like. For example: In Indian subcontinent, temperature and humidity are usually high and attires like Formal suits, tight jeans, skin tight t shirts etc. are might prove a really bad investment. Dhoti, kurta, pyjama, lungi, etc. loose clothes are more in line with the Indian flavours! But still we blindly follow the traditions. Occasional covering is okay, but stressing about it daily makes no sense!

There are numerous instances when people have gone under the knife to get some physical characteristic altered into some desire shape or proportion, only to be dazzled by it in beginning, fascinated about their heroic adventure, going against the nature. Most of the cases, have asked for a reversal of these alterations because after sometime, when they fail to recognise themselves, they seek their old self back because they understand the beauty of it. Sometimes they get the reversal done, again costing them a fortune, rest stuck with what they are. What I am trying to point to is: Embrace the natural beauty. God has created every being beautiful and powerful in its own way. Why not identify it and flaunt it with confidence!

Synthetic Beauty is more repulsive than attractive when the long run is considered. People might get attracted or momentarily feel happy after the cosmetic colouring, but everyone sees through everything eventually and then there is no point in hiding behind that powdery-creamy-lotiony(I have no idea whether it is a word or not! 😀 but it rhymed) mask! We all have come back from a party and gossiped about everyone who has done excessive make up and others do the same about us too. Hence what is the point in investing so much effort. One must work on their natural beauty and flaunt it with confidence rather than feeling low or insecure about it. We all agree that yester-era actresses were real beauty as compared to today’s cosmetic avatars and I thus rest my case here! 

Thus embrace your natural self, enjoy your surrounding while you are yourself and not someone made on the whims of world, be original you as you are the only one of your kind. Live free and Live Long!

24Mins 😀

Early Morning Challenges

“Before writing this blog post, I would like to take a minute and thank Saakshi for volunteering for the morning alarm(in case my real alarm gives up after its allotted 10 min time). Although I woke up all by myself, thanks to early shut down of mind and body! 😀 And Sweet Mother of Holy Beloved God! It was freezing cold. I mean, I am born and bred in Sikar, some 120km aways from my current destination, with similar temperature variation and used to feel proud that I am lucky enough to have experience both extreme hot and cold weather and rains too! Snowfall was the only thing I missed in those days.

Pilani opened my eyes to new realm of temperature extremities and humidity. Sikar is not that much humid as compared to Pilani and hence heat is dry there, I mean, sweating is tolerable and with time, I believe we have evolved to sweat very less. In Pilani, even walking as short distance as 20 meters will leave you drowning in your own sweat. I joined here in summer term, and hence cursed the Pilani heat each day until I experienced the Winter Hell and as if stars were aligned to destroy enthusiasm, my next semester after joining was going to be a winter sem. God saved us then!

Returning to the matter at hand, I woke up this morning and it was a test of my determination. Alarm went off at the right time according to digital world and I pulled my hand out to shut it off, only to feel the steep temperature gradient outside and inside my blanket! At that moment, the only thing I could think of: “Let this blanket be my coffin for today and let me sleep peacefully till next birth(morning)” That comfortable it was inside the blanket! Still I got up with my strength, passing the “determination” test considerably well. B)

Next big challenge was morning rituals! Cold water and it was foggy night, hence sun was a little late to arrive at the party. Solar water heaters were of no use and it was useless to even try to check whether there was warm water or not! 1 and half years in this oasis have left me with enough experience. Still with a steel heart and similar hands, I went about them, and finally I was already and set to leave for my daily endeavour.

Morning taught me many things, like there is always a new beginning. How so ever dark the night is, there will always be that redness in the sky indicating sunrise. All in all, it was a nice experience to wake up early for a change and I would be trying very hard to make it a daily habit just like writing this blog!

See You Later 😀

Morning Hours

My last post took almost 6 days from top-to-bottom! Clearly something was wrong with my schedule that needed to be rectified! Earlier I used to write at the end of day, sitting comfortably in my room, slowly and steadily completing each composition, taking my time. This way I don’t have to worry about time and could go on writing as long as I can. But last blog post published some astonishing results.

I decided to switch to morning writings, 9-10 am mainly, because it is a free hour on all days except Friday, but that is manageable. Starting a day with creating something positive, creating something from nothing, always charges up the body-both physically and mentally. Fills you with a different energy from regular mornings. Makes every morning memorable-that you have created something! A feeling of pleasure :3 Also sitting down early in morning, trying to  brain storm something positive helps to set the tone of the day. 

Always elders have pointed out that: “Early risers get ahead in game”. Getting up early and writing something is more strong motivation than getting up early and studying, I mean at least for a normal student like me. Yet, waking up early and activating brain cells to work hard from the moment alarm rings; helps in strong energy flow throughout the body and slowly and steadily entire body wakes up and before you know, you are already working at your 70-80%! A little exercise or yoga is like cherry on the top! But I am yet to walk on that road. Although I have made it a habit to cycle fast!

Writing in morning mean, I get to sleep early in night, implies more sleep time and also easier waking up too! Hence changing the position of just one activity brought the entire schedule to somewhat optimal level. Waking up early in morning is easier when we have slept enough and also with habit, one does not feel the need of alarm clock too. Hence no unpleasant sounds in morning and one wakes up to the noise of chirping birds sound and rays of sun. The feeling is super, trust me!

Remember, how our daily schedule was more than optimum during school days! So much we were able to do in 24 hours. Study 5-7 subject, complete homework, play, practice some hobby, hangout with friends, sleep, watch tv too( I was a big cartoon network and Hungama fan. 😀 Shinchan, Kochikame and Beyblade, Tom & Jerry were my opium 😉 ), spend time with family members too. Complete Optimisation. Most of us fail to do even half of it now! Just because we lose precious morning hours which we used to get during school hours, thanks to our Super-Moms! B-) Salute!

Developing a new habit takes time. It takes more of mental strength to stick to that habit than physical tuning! People are very enthusiastic while embarking on the journey of new habit or hobby but then lose the motivation, mainly due to impatience. Our mind always wants to do things easy way with a few exceptions of course. Thus every time you find something good, it seems difficult to our mind and immediately he will pose numerous obstacles, conquering them is the biggest challenge while developing some new habit. This usually is not the case with the bad habits. One can easily acquire bad habits without much effort! He just has to surrender to the whim.

Thus, I will be trying to incorporate “Early Rising” practice in my schedule and hopefully with time it will become a good habit. Thus you can expect more morning posts from now onwards. Trust me, it is such a wonderful experience to write in morning with all the peace and calm around. Fingers crossed! 😀 

Buenos días (Good Morning in Spanish 🙂 )

 

The Person I Create

Creating a person is challenging! Make some one too perfect, critics and readers blow it on grounds of pretentious writing. Make some one with all flaws and he/she automatically is hated by readers and critics on context of over-doing the “flaw thing”. So over next few paragraphs I would try to build an entirely new person! Let us see how it(dunno whether it will be he or she ^_^ 😀 so for time being let it be it!):

(I wouldn’t lie, but after the above paragraph, I am writing this after 4 days! So with some breathing space, let us begin the journey of this character! 🙂 )

Let us start with a normal person. There are millions and billions of definition for “normalcy”, but let us go with 2 eyes, 1 nose, 2 lips, 2 ears, 2 eye brows(there are people with missing eye brows or a uni brow too!), black hair, 2 hands, 2 legs, one torso, 1 spine and all! Nothing abnormal in that sense. Let us fix the age of that character to 19 years who is just about to complete teenage. (Primary reason for that is: more familiarity with the peculiar features of character due to first hand experience) So now diving into the “normalcy” defined for a teenager. She.(I have decided to create a female character, based on just intuition. No logic behind it 😉 ) She has these sparkling chinese eyes, puffed up cheeks, well shaped eye brows, wide forehead, long black hair, short round nose etc. (All random characteristics I have jumbled together! Any resemblance is and will be a mere coincidence!)

Often my instructor has remarked that, unleafing any quality or attribute of a character depends upon the requirement of composition. In a short story, only 1 or 2 or at max 3 are to be portrayed for the world (Like in The Gift of Magi by O Henry, Della’s Hair were the only feature focused upon or Jim’s watch!) and in novel, writers enjoy the liberty to reveal as many as they want at any particular time in the story line as they usually don’t deal with the constraint of page number in a novel! And then other forms of composition like poems, one act play, street play, stage play, etc. have different requirements manly depending upon writer’s style and requirement of the composition, all open to creative buds of the writer’s mouth!

Coming back to character at hand, I personally prefer to explore the personality of a person rather than physical attributes, although I am not impervious to it either. So I guess, we have defined enough physical attributes for a developing character. I have no requirements of any sort here, I can reveal as much as I can with hidden informations here and there or I can show light on a few revealing as little detail as I can! Similar to scarcity of light and dazzling behaviour in opposite order. 😀 How to portray some traits of physical or psychiatric or personal attributes varies from writer to writer! Some may put it bluntly in front of readers and then beautifully build a plot upon it, some may put forward in form of some incident or situation compelling readers to interpret, some may just narrate it so artistically that it leaves its reader “awestruck”. I will try my hand at all three!

“Amour(Name of my character) is a girl of kind heart. Brought up with care and comfort and pampered like a princess, she is well aware about feeling of others and always opt for a path which has less negative impact on others. She believes that almost everyone is good, some are purely not, and believes in the strength of friends! Amour has always felt that  true friends and real family are the strongest support one can have and all other relationship are secondary. She makes a family amongst her friends too. 2 caring families! Her “Friend-Mom”, is the one who cares about her the most and always had her back while taking cruel decisions and guided her in the right way!. Amour have a ‘Friend-Family-Pandit” gives her legal advices in life, more based on practical nature of a situation! There is “Friend-Mom’s Sister, Mausi”-as per the relationship names guide in India. Then other very good friends. She has a wide friend-circle with all these amazing people who provide her a very cheerful blooming environment! Wise Amour! 🙂 ” (Blunt approach!)

“Amour wanted to enroll in some course and she did all the formalities by the book, but due to some electrical or electronic glitch, she failed to register in the course! Frustrated upon her fate, she went to friends for help. Keeping a good friend circle paid off, and she was flooded with all possible solutions to this crunch problem. Her institute was strict and once the deadline for course registration has passed, it gets very difficult to register in that course and you are directly summoned by Dean. Bold as she was, she went straight to the Associate Dean, full of faith in her doings, calm and diligently put her case forward only to be rejected once again on grounds of lack of evidence. Not giving up was in her nature. She some how, with help of a close friend, managed to gather an evidence which was fine ray in the dark, yet a bullet that could be tested only upon firing. She succeeded and thanked her stars for playing fate in her favor this time.” (Incidental approach portraying her courageous, righteous, bold, and intelligent traits in personality)

“Amour has this vibrant smile, a very wide one and cheerful one. Every time she entered the room with that wide smile of hers, occupants would feel the vibes already! Her smile was like this rising sun from horizon, painting the canvas with her own colours. She never smiled fake, at least not in front of the ones she cared about, always her smile was sourced from heart. It was the peek hole for the world to look into her calm, cool and cheery self! She laughs on good jokes and smiles on PJs too! She was never a miser and nor a spoiled brat when spending her smile currency. Dealing in profit always, she never held back a transaction either ways, but always valued each transaction sensibly! She knew what her smile was worth of, yet she always tried to reach bankruptcy! That is how Amour was!” (Narrative approach with very minute details)

So, roughly, that is how one might attempt to create a character. Great writers are well versed in this art, I am a mere beginner in this arena. I hope you have enjoyed reading this. From Heading-to-Last Line, it took me 5 and half days! Daily chores were consuming more time! Anyway, Happy Valentine’s day! Enjoy and Stay Foolish. 🙂 

Hamba Kahle! (Good Bye in Zulu language of Zululand, a part of South Africa 🙂 )

Person Next To Me

Before diving into the world of words and the purpose of this blog post, let me allow the setting I am in. I am in IPC(Information Processing Centre), which has really high speed network facilities and students usually utilize it for doing online courses, practice for their lab assignments or may be just HD streaming of youtube. There are various uses open to everyone’s imagination! I was here to study too, but then I got this idea about an assignment I have in one of the courses I am enrolled in: Describe a person! So I thought, what place better than IPC, where everybody is busy in their work and I can quietly observe and write about people without them knowing. Evil! 😀

Let me start with basic information I can observe of the person next to me. She is a girl, sitting on my left. Wears a thick lens spects, probably studious in nature, an open notebook on which she is scribbling something very quickly, suggests the same thing. Black hair with a tinge of brown color tied tight is suggestive of two things: busy schedule and takes her work seriously or have deep grass root and prefers Indian style or may be both! Of course there may be other plausible explanations too. Fair in colour, and has focused eyes. The way she focuses her eyes on screen and stares while blinking slowly might confirm my “studious theory”.

Worn off nail paints might suggest that either she is busy with studies and didn’t get the time to repaint, or she is not bothered too much by rules and regulation of fashion world! She is average in height, her chair position and sitting posture clearly asserts this theory. She is sitting with a slightly forward inclination, again portrays inquisitive nature or may wrong posture due to studying in bed more or lying. She types fast both on keyboard and phone. Her replying speed for couple of messages was indicative of it.

She constantly have one or both hand touching her chin. May be a by product of coaching institute where students spend hours in lectures, attendance more than 100-150! Such long hours automatically develop such habits. Or may be something “awestruck” is on display in front of her. We would never know! She doesn’t like moving her chair much (which I love swinging round and round if given the liberty 😀 ). Such stability might be result of stable personality and self restraint or may be general disliking for rotating chair. All interpretation are possible. Hasnt written or typed something in a while, probably fell prey to youtube and high speed internet and we might have to discard the “self restraint” part of “stable and self restraint” theory.

Never leaned back on her chair projects the urge to stay attentive and hard-working nature. She looked here once. I was lucky to have been observing her from the side of my eyes! Phew! close call! Here quick scribbling speed and now indulging in pleasure activities, is suggestive of “work hard, enjoy hard” nature and combined with hard-working and attentive posture and tolerance for long study session(from hand on chin) is projecting a strong and prioritizing person, who has worked hard all the way here and is in no mood to tune down! May be she is searching for some APOGEE project! It is close too. There are many possible interpretations here! I might be completely wrong too! We would never know! Time to leave!

Good Bye( Good Bye in English 😀 )

5 minutes

It was a quite Friday morning. Sun finally decided to grace us with its presence. As I was walking out of the doors of Vyas Bhawan, I had a final glimpse at my watch, whose hands indicated 9:00AM! I was late! I rushed towards my cycle, jumped on it and pedaled it with all my strength and stamina to make it to KDM tutorial class on time or rather close to it, for that matter.

As I moved out of the gates, on to the main road to Faculty Divisions, I noticed a rickshaw-wala in half sweater coming from temple towards Patel Statue. May be somebody of acquaintance was riding that rickshaw, I was too late to observe. As I cycled my way through fast moving crowd, I noticed less markings of bird feces on road as compared to other days, may be “Winter is Going”.

I waved to a couple of friends, who were returning from their early morning class. May be they waved back too, but I was cycling at top speed, again ignorant of mundane presence around me. Had a look at my watch again, 9:03AM and I had just crossed Gandhi Bhawan Stairs. Observing the crowd movement pattern, current speed and temperature of wind, I decided to increase the pace with hope to make it to class by 9:06Am with an error of 1 minute at max.

The saplings near Krishna Stairs looked greener and younger and there was a group of students making its way to NAB from Krishna Bhawan. There were two choices in front of me: either increase my further up or slowdown and let them pass. I decided to pedal with all the strength left in my calf muscles and toes and steered as if my life depended on it…… Phew! Just crossed them. Finally found a parking space next to a purple lady bird, locked my ride in hurry and rushed on the stairs and then skipped one step at a time on the next two flights, finally walking briskly, entering 2203.

Quickly enough, went to teacher’s desk, picked up the practice problem and drawing sheet with my name scribbled on it, and comfortably sat at the back, trying to avoid the constant stare of my instructor, may be disgusted that his students cannot make to 2nd hour class on time. I looked at my watch again, 9:05AM, while pulling out my stationary from the depths of my bag and finally with a glimpse at my surrounding I indulged in my velocity diagram, I was going to chart.

That was my 5 minutes this morning and an assignment which was not evaluated.

સારી બાય (Good bye in Gujarati)

Dichotomy: A Simpler Life

Dichotomy implies division or splitting into two different options which are completely opposite to each other. Dichotomy is a term more associated with question papers as more and more examiners are swearing by the ease in conduction and authenticity of multiple choice questions’ test as well as its evaluation. For example, a question is having only two options to choose from: Yes or No. This is a classic example of dichotomous questions with options completely opposite. True or false, Past or Future, Right or Wrong, In or Out, all are viable dichotomous options and are to be used in pair only.

Returning to focal point of this post, why I usually prefer dichotomy or prefer to convert a situation or problem in dichotomous option problem? (Please see, that whenever I will be referring to a problem, I won’t be talking about some problem faced in a test but general life problems which are common to all or at least to me. Also I am explaining my approach towards life and not trying to force it upon anyone. 🙂 Peace!) There are places in life, where a lot of the precious time can be saved by making irrelevant choices faster! Whether to wear this shirt or not? “yes” “no” “may be I will if it will look better with those pants!” Should I wear those trousers? “yes” “no” ‘May be they will look better with some other t-shirt!” What about the shirt I was going to wear? “Yes” “No” “May be with some other trousers!” And clearly the cycle can go on.

This was a very trivial example of just clothes! Mark Zuckerberg, founder of Facebook, is known to have eliminated the choice in his clothes to avoid any problems and not waste time in dressing up. There are other situations: “Should I invest in that particular project?” Possible answer: Yes, No, May be I should depending upon so and so conditions, maybe I shouldn’t depending on so and so situation and then there will be complex situations too. I prefer to limit them to “yes” or “No” only! All other calculations can be done later. Ratan Tata, Former Chairman of Tata Group, one of the gigantic names in Indian Industry, once remarked that: “I don’t believe in taking right decisions! I take decisions and then make them right!!”. It not all implies that one must take decisions blindly, but if you have taken one, then back your instincts at all costs.

Limiting a situation to dichotomous choices serves a good purpose: weighing and comparing your choices gets easy. Mostly it eradicates any confusion left. Again it varies from person to person, how strictly he adheres to his line of distinction between the dichotomous choices. There will be people who might work on the extreme ends of continuum while distinguishing between their choices where are there will be people with all the shades in between. Again there are people with different methods to choose between the two options. Some might resort to pure luck and then work their way from there, some prepare a list of pros and cons, some back their intuition, some have devised other methods like spiritual methods. Their applications might vary and we may be doing it unknowingly too. Some area of introspection.

I prefer to work on my intuition or “clicking” or “appealing”. It works this way: If I come across some situation where both prospects are very different and I have to choose one, and there is no clear choice based on initial inspection, I go with the one which “clicks” to me or “I find more appealing based on my intuition” or which “seem” more feasible. I make the choice based on that and then march forward all prepared to deal with consequences. No shortcuts. I have observed that following this practice over the years, seem to have developed an intuition which gets polished with time and more choices one makes. Thus life is much simpler structure this way for me as compared to a complex situation with all the permutations and combinations of numerous choices we create for ourselves. Again, just a matter of personal preferences and one’s attitude and approach towards life!

Nirōpa (Good bye in Marathi 😀 )

The Invisible Ink

A writer’s worst fear is falling prey to misinterpretation by masses. Often while writing at some point or other he takes a tour of his own territory to find constructions that can be used for any purpose, be it good or bad. That is the point where the writer, itching to write boldly and freely, scratches his ink impressions on the paper or presses delete button on his laptop just to avoid the unnecessary banter and criticism. If the writer were to express his original sentiments but would want to avoid the defamation due to misinterpretation by critics and general mass, he would be required to adhere to anonymity and hence not receiving the credit for his work from people who had admired the composition.

There are times when a writer wants to express his views on some controversial topics quite boldly but resists his gut-feeling because he has no intention to fall in pit of bad publicity or criticism just because his article might be open to interpretations. Writers desire freedom of expression and sometimes they reach cross roads where either he has to choose between being bold about his content or just keep his writings to himself or adopt anonymity and hence sacrifice the direct appraisal from his fans. All viable options! And difficult to choose from!

There has been numerous instances where a writer has been put in cross-hairs just on the notion that the content composed by him was controversial and either it is misinterpretation of content or is hurting the sentiments of certain group of people around the globe who protest less about it than the group actually protesting about it, and are not part of that group either. More often than not it is just anti-social elements triggering rage and dissatisfaction amongst the masses.

Writing with an ink which would disappear once reader has read the content and hence reader has no evidence of what to criticize about. No evidence at all! The Invisible Ink! It serves all the purposes. Writers get to write freely, they receive all the credit they deserve and no unnecessary banter by trend following people and most important of all they avoid the shadows of anonymity. Its a win-win situation. Invisible ink provides this overwhelming freedom a writer dreams about, completely full filling the purpose of his writings enabling him to express his ideologies without any restrictions.

Yes, it is true, that there are writers who will misuse this great power to just perform publicity stunts and gain moments in the bright light of fame but then there are always criminals amongst the good masses. Such a power will be well utilized by those writers who store the capability to changing the world by just their words but have been holding back. Hence, if ever there was such a device, or actually ink, or such a power like “The Invisible Ink”, it would be symbolic of liberation of writers from the curse of judgmental crowd who prefer to follow the trend rather actually putting effort to grasp the true meaning and intentions of the writer.

Paalam (Good Bye in Philippines) 😀